Can you relate??
in a Bardo period trying to get a handle on my next life assignment. I've been
working since the age of 15 and not having an active project before me is a new
experience. Any advice about handling this empty period before the next active
life chapter begins would be appreciated.
As M says, I too feel this is a deepening, lying fallow time. New life
directions are not evident yet, but it's clear something good is coming.
Something more real and probably more exciting in a destiny-way than before.
Most of my clients have this same experience, often complaining that they feel
stuck, or blind about their lives. I often feel slightly flat, very contained
in a smallish space, like a fruit getting ripe. Attending to tidying,
organizing, getting rid of clutter.
Penney, you speak to my feelings of feeling stuck. I agree that organizing and
ridding oneself of clutter is unbelievably cleansing. Have had a ton of stuff
in storage for over a decade and haven't missed it. Now, the decision is
whether to go through it all (dozens of cartons) or donate it. Am very close to
donating sight unseen but then the dreaded "what if" monster appears
now and again. Being ready to embrace Destiny is a very exciting thought.
to J for suggesting, "I call it the 'pregnant pause of the
Universe’—waiting for a new creation to birth itself."
Yes, I've had that sense of hunkering down low ever since my last book was
published. My need for rest and nothing on my mind was so strong I could barely
keep up with doing the dishes, but through it all I sensed it was exactly what
I should be doing—nothing much. My feeling has been that there is a big job
ahead that will require my whole strength and concentration, and this is
preparation time. So I have been savoring the quiet, letting orderliness go by
the boards, giving away stuff and, interestingly, going through old photo
albums and compiling pictures of the lives of my husband and each of our children,
making a new album for each one. My own comes next, but before that I'm now
gathering very old photos from my childhood of the 2 generations before mine,
and making a "family stories with pictures" of the grandchildren’s
great-great-great grandparents and their siblings. It all feels like
Yes. "Big job ahead that will require strength" really resonates. I
too am sorting through old family photos. Certainly does feel like
"preparation time," but have never been so lazy in my life. Reminds
me of a song from West Side Story: “...Could be! / Who knows? / There's
something due any day / I will know right away / Soon as it shows. / It may
come cannonballing down through the sky...” Best part... "I got a feeling
there's a miracle due / Gonna come true / Coming to me!”
W: Penney, this sounds like me. I just repainted the inside of our home from
yellow to white and I seem to be wanting to purchase white flowers, etc. even
in the white winter we are having. And I am also cleaning out, organizing,
much (of what you’re all saying) has resonated—like the fruit getting ripe and
since my maiden name was Rose, I am probably waiting to bloom and blossom. I
wish I could BE more during this time but find myself going backing to DO the simple
housecleaning and bookkeeping that I haven't done for years. It is like weeding
my garden now of things no longer useful—and in a sense doing a life review so
I can discard remnants from the past I no longer need. J, you are so on target
when you wrote: "I'm also reminded of the Girl Scout Motto—"Be Prepared."
interesting synchronicity to our discussion—after writing that I am a Rose
waiting to bloom, I went to FB and someone posted to me: "Remember, in the
winter, far beneath the bitter snow, lies a seed, that with the sun's love, in
the spring, becomes the rose. —Bette Midler"
Penney: I sense that this odd containment in a
small physical reality is actually an important and powerful time. I think we
are needing to practice keeping our frequency at the level of what I've called
our "home frequency"—correcting our mood swings and out of body
absences as often as we can remember to, so we saturate with the vibration of
our soul, and stabilize our personality at a new, more transformed level, so
that becomes our "new normal." I sense our bodies, our circuitries,
our energy fields, are busily and steadily changing as we stay calm while
watching yet another detective show on TV, or vacuum the floor, or take a load
of old clothes to Good Will. It's about remaining peaceful, cheerful,
optimistic—as our natural state.
also think it is about finding the connections and convenings with people of
like vibration now. It may start with innocuous conversations, but I think
working relationships and projects will grow out of the resonance. I think this
is a time to be working deliberately in the imaginal realm, creating little
possible movies of any kind of fun reality, stepping into them, trying them on
like new clothes, keeping attention on the ones we like, making a place for those
realities to live in us so they can come to life. It's a good practice to keep
an idea journal now—jot down the snippets of things emerging from our depths
and right brain, note the negative declarative statements the left brain likes
to make and counteract them, play with some of the ideas in the imagination.
Don't let the left brain run us!!
So many interesting kinds of consciousness can come from this “Bardo period.”
And it's something most people are SO afraid of. . .
you, Penney. You've described just what it's been like for me this past year or
more, including reading mysteries and children's books with such cozy relish!
And I've been settling down somewhere deep, with nothing new coming in, UNTIL—3
weeks ago when synchronicities and offers started coming at a furious pace!
After all these years of doing my work in relative obscurity, the following all
happened in just under 3 weeks, unsolicited:
1. Three of my students of improvisational dance healing/intuition
training/meditative practice asked to be taught how to teach my work.
2. I was
asked to teach students at a local college.
new urban, permaculture farm/eco-village which, 30 years ago I tried to start
with collaborators not ready to do anything quite that radical, is starting up
and has asked me to join up with them. A dream come true. I will be helping to
build their first straw-bale structure. And eventually perhaps live there.
So after almost a year of rest, everything I've ever wanted to do in the world
has presented me with the perfect opportunities. Now I have to learn how to
keep it all balanced.
C, that is wonderful! I think / feel we are all unearthing organically
something that is a culmination of many years of collective work and service. I
also have been in the phase of “let’s see what shows up” that is new and
inspiring! I have become addicted to my Kindle and since October have read 35
books which has inspired me to finally get my own books on Kindle. And I have
decided to dive in once again and write two new books. I have been invited to
be a cohost on a new radio show which should be a lot of fun with two other
hosts. I have tried to slow down and then the Universe laughs. But I am truly
trying to allow myself 'me time'!