Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Present Moment Practice

I did my own oracle today on my website's home page and this is what I got. it's a good reminder!

I recognize my soul-blocking thoughts.

Catch yourself when you block the natural expression of your soul today with life-negating ideas. Replace these limiting thoughts with soul-freeing behaviors instead.

It began not long ago—the moment narrowing down, my voice resounding hollowly, my attention directed by some inner teacher to the words I am uttering. I hear myself eerily now whenever I make a false statement. This sensitivity has come as the result of a resolution I made to identify myself as my soul, present here and now in its full wisdom. I vowed to give my soul a chance to take over my body, emotions, mind, creativity, and self-expression, to "do with me what it would." As I practice this, I have moments of giddy excitement as I glimpse what the unimpeded soul is capable of knowing and doing in the world, when given the chance. These clear insights then inexplicably collapse into my habitual way of perceiving, where I find myself imbedded in old limitation and victim thoughts, or in patterns of hostility, irritation, or impatience. I realize with a deep, private embarrassment that every time I choose to get juice out of feeling maligned or unappreciated, I am stalling being my true self. Who is it hurting? Me. "This is not the way I want to spend my short time on earth!" I yell to no one in particular as I drive along in my car.

I have been investing my life force and attention in ideas that block the flow of my soul, just as I might invest my savings in a loser mutual fund. How many times have I chosen to close my heart just because someone else's heart was hard or cool? Why do I cause myself pain like that? Just to match them and have some kind of connection? Because we can't expect any more here on earth? I'm drawing the line! I'm investing in soul-serving, soul-freeing thoughts from now on.

I make a list of the ideas I've held unconsciously that pertain to: 1) doubt, worry, lack of confidence; 2) self-sacrifice, victimization, unfairness, helplessness, rescue, overwhelm; 3) scarcity, fear of loss; 4) denial, avoidance, procrastination, postponement, waiting; 5) rebellion, stubbornness, complaining; 6) feigning ignorance; 7) envy, resentment, indignation, betrayal, stealing; 8) violence, retribution, punishment, judgment, vengeance, aggression, domination. These are mistakes of perception. I flag them. I catch myself now every time I start in on these themes or hear those societally correct platitudes we're all hypnotized into repeating: "Well, everybody does it." "I'm not too bad." "Oh, I don't know." "I'm no expert." "It could be worse." "I can't." "Maybe. . ." Patiently, I ask my soul to re-educate me about who I really am."

Excerpted from The Present Moment: A Daybook of Clarity and Intuition


ben brown said...

You're right on it, Penney, love it!

ben brown said...

Oh, very hot, too hot to sleep, ok, do I really have a blog now? Hmmm.

Hal Morgan said...

Unfortuately, being very human. Keep asking and keep reminding. Love your frequency book. Especially your glossary of spiritua; terms at the back. Very Accurate.
Hal Morgan Ancaster, ON. Canada