New Symptoms of Transformation
I have recently been having an email conversation with a woman (L, noted below) who is experiencing many new symptoms of transformation. We agreed to post the conversation, in case any of you are experiencing similar things. I invite you to email me with your experiences and perhaps I'll do a Part 2 after I gather more stories. . .
L: Penney, I know you’re busy but I was led to email you this morning. I experienced something last night that was odd but wonderful, and was wondering if it could have been a universal event. I was watching a show when suddenly something shifted—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It was a major shift, as though I was transported from somewhere else and placed in my home! I missed parts of the show and am not even sure I was watching a show before this occurred. I physically felt my body being “placed” and there was a feeling of alignment. I knew this was right and a veil of peace washed over me. Have you experienced anything like this? What ever it is, it's wonderful!
P: I can feel what you're describing and it feels like an exaggerated blinking out and back experience. We all rock in and out of form constantly, but this feels like you energetically stayed out longer, allowed yourself to realign with a higher frequency pattern, like a spiritual chiropractic adjustment, then snapped back to your "normal" reality. It feels like you slowed the process down, so you become more conscious of its dynamics, like there was a deliberate and higher sort of consciousness applied to the re-formation part of your process, so you experienced it as being “placed.” Watch now for subtle changes in the way things work over the next few weeks, as the new higher-frequency pattern begins to function, and let me know what you notice. I feel like this happened to me for most of last year, but stretched out over many months.
L: I'm not sure what has happened to me but please tell me I didn't just go crazy—and I'm very serious about that. Ever since that "blink," I hear the prayers of the world, and the heartbeat of the earth. These were happening for a short time before the blink but now I "know things" that I don't want to say I shouldn't know, but things are so clear! It’s like walking through a sleeping planet. I am so filled with an extreme love that I cry over this feeling. I know what it was like before humans manifested everything that we have today and polluted our spirits. I hardly know who I was just a short time ago. I don't want to sleep and I awake every night at 3 am.
I KNOW that everything I desire is already here and I desire nothing. By the way, I have a terrible headache! I'm sure I was somewhere else last night. It felt as though my body was physically there. I would appreciate any insight you have, even if it's "get to a mental institution!" LOL.
Wait—maybe I shouldn't be laughing out loud at this. Was this a shift into a 5th dimension? Was this an activation of some kind? Please tell me I'm not the only one experiencing this!
P: I never am sure about the terminology people use to describe dimensions. I would simply say that you had a conscious experience of going into the nonphysical, spiritually-based realm. I like your idea of walking through a sleeping planet though! I often feel this, like other people are moving in slow motion or speaking a language that is in an ancient dialect, with old phraseology. Or, there is a sort of suspended animation with some people and a very heightened action with others on higher frequencies. At the same time, it’s like walking through love; the love is like slippery, shiny air. I can notice it or forget to notice it, and the world changes in an instant depending on which thing I pay attention to. The life I left in California, which I was so steeped in for so long, now seems like a dream, and the new life seems like a dream as well!
Similarly, I feel little need to push to make my work “work.” Where ambition used to be, there is now simply a feeling of enjoyment and excitement. There are no shoulds left. I sense everything is “just right” and that it will become ever more “just right.” I don’t need the same things I used to need and am happier with what I have and with what comes.
L: You had asked me to share some of the changes I experience with this shift. First: Waking every night at 3 am. I no longer feel as though I'm a spiritual being in a human body but that this body is becoming spiritual. Almost an interweaving of the two. The physical body no longer holds the limitations of boundaries. I trust you will understand this.
P: Yes, I have had the waking at 3 am thing for many years. It was often accompanied by remembering a visionary dream. But it evolved into a pattern where I was unable to fall asleep and was often simply awake at 3am. Now, my sleep patterns change often. I sleep different hours, and sometimes none at all. And yet, I am not exhausted the next day—as my left brain would have me believe. I sense much energy adjustment going on during the evening hours when my left brain is quieter. I too feel like the field is my body.
L: Next: Words that would normally upset me seem to have no emotions attached to them. They are just words. When something starts to align with a frequency lower than what my higher self desires, there's like an "automatic correct" that activates to adjust my thoughts.
P: I think this is part of us moving beyond old perceptual patterns. People who react with anger, meanness, or pettiness, just seem boring to me anymore, or I feel drawn to give them a blessing. Part of this is a lack of interest in the news; I don’t want to add attention to the negativity. The old patterns of taking offense seem to be a waste of time and energy. Better things to do!!
L: Third: The two worlds or realms don't always exist separately anymore. What I used to hear and see using "spiritual gifts " are now just appearing! For example, sounds that are so clear that everyone should hear them, but they don't. People and objects appear from nowhere. I know these things weren't there before. Such as someone walking down the street, or a random object appearing on the table I just cleared off. Coincidences that I know are not!
P: Exactly! I find a synchromesh sort of occurrence of the answers to my sometimes idle thoughts. I need/want to find a new bedskirt for my bed, and the perfect one appears at the consignment store, discounted that day to $3! It happens with timing for appointments, and how and when I answer emails. Clients say sentences that are the perfect answer to something I was thinking about. Everything seems coordinated by a higher force.
L: Fourth: I can't even imagine the person I used to be just a short time ago.
Things I longed for, I no longer desire. Everything seems, for lack of a
better word, "perfect”—in a universal way. This has all happened so quickly but without the experience of time. And by the way, I have a white owl, actually very beautiful, and an enormous hawk, as my animal spirit guides. They both appear during the day and night together. These are real birds! Pretty wild, huh!
P: I can relate to all the things you say! I had a hawk come down onto a low branch of a tree next to my kitchen window recently. He just sat there and looked in the window at me. As to “my” history, and “my” story—I feel I continue to hold my history to myself as a way to be real to others, to have something in common with others, and though I can project my attention back into the “memories,” and feel all the sensations associated with the experiences, I can feel how I’m not at all invested in them, or the meanings I may have attached to them previously. I feel a deep sense of satisfaction, really, with remembering, gradually, the fullness of all the lives I’ve lived, and who I really am.
L: These are such dramatic changes and without knowing others are experiencing these same things, I feel it could take a toll on us. Now I know why I've connected with you! Did this all happen to you quickly or over a year? I know time doesn't exist but it seems so compacted like there's so much more to come.
P: All these symptoms of the transformational shift have been happening to me for many years, but intensifying recently, especially last year in 2013. If you read back through my Oracle Letters (on my homepage), you’ll be able to track my perceptions.
L: Here’s a new one: The 1 am Metamorphosis. LOL. For about a week now at 1 am, I wake up and have to literally get out of bed and stretch my spine. I continue this for 5 to 10 min. I thought this must look like one of those shows where the guy turns into a werewolf! But I was given the vision of a butterfly coming out of a cocoon. I'm not talking about a little stretch. My spine feels like it's getting longer. I feel—"grander" Is the word I'm given, which is pretty cool since I'm barely 5' tall!
Also my body is tired but then I want to take a walk. I don't feel like doing anything but then I feel as though I need to be doing something and this carries some urgency with it, but it's OK if I don't. Does this make sense? So, OK if you have the stretching or the "do this, don't do that, and it's all OK", (LOL) then I think we are really on to something here.
If we make our own realities and things are appearing and disappearing, what do you think happens to the people in our lives who no longer fit with our vibrations? Do they just disappear since we are creating a new world?
I was shown a vision of two worlds being pulled apart like 2 pieces of plastic wrap stuck together and being separated. The top one was transparent and the bottom one was heavy. The top transparent one is the new higher vibrational world and the bottom is the lower vibrational world. The lower will remain a "training ground" while the higher will be... I suddenly have no words here but instead of erasing this I'm to leave it for you.
P: I also have begun to be conscious of getting all the kinks out of my spine; I seem to do it every few hours all day long, and especially first thing in the morning, when I do lots of stretching. Perhaps we are sensitive to any blocked flows of energy now—wanting the body’s information without having it jam up.
When people no longer fit with your reality, I sense they simply move to a different part of our spherical field, and we pay attention to other frequencies. Other people, who match those frequencies, begin to materialize in our personal realm. The other people aren’t gone, but they aren’t the focus of our attention. Our reality adapts to the focus of our attention.
Your vision of the worlds being pulled apart is quite accurate, I think. I have had visions about this as well. I have written about this vision several years ago; it was published in my newsletter in 2003.
Here it is:
Becoming Transparent:Preparing to Live in the Permanent Present MomentCopyright by Penney Peirce 2003
The dream woke me at exactly 3am, as is the case with every visionary dream I've ever had. In it, I was camping in the desert, "holding a spot" for what seemed like a week or two, just waiting and maintaining a steady vibration, following some sort of higher, intuitive orders. My mother was with me, and as we lounged in our folding plastic chairs, she told me she was worried about the future. I was reading a book, written in a series of different sized dots and circles. Looking at the pages, they were literally covered edge to edge by a field of these spheres, some yellow, some blue, some purple—looking very much like a close-up of round cells under a microscope. And yet, it made perfect sense to me and I read it by tracking through the field, following various sequences of rotations of the spheres, like tracing the flow of oil through a complex series of gears.
I said to my mother, "Oh, Don't worry. It's not going to be that bad. See? It says right here. . ." And I proceeded to describe what the book depicted. There was a "cosmic event" happening WAY WAY out in the far reaches of the universe. In fact, it had already occurred and had set in motion this particular sequence of rotations, where the collision or spin of one celestial body affected another, and then another, and another, until the wave of spiraling energy would reach our own solar system and planet. When that happened—and it wouldn't be too much longer now—the book said that people would attribute the result to erroneous causes.
The dream scene suddenly shifted and I was standing in a room talking to a male colleague, a healer who was dressed in a gray business suit who had just returned from the big cities of the East Coast. "Those suits are really solid!" he exclaimed. And I thought, the business mentality is hard to get through, or maybe the bodies themselves are like suits. He looked at me and said, "Well, you look fine; you're right on schedule." I looked down and my left arm was transparent up to the shoulder. As I saw this, memory suddenly flooded into me about what was really going on. We were approaching an important time in the history of the planet. There would be an "event," related the the cosmic event from the far-distant universe, that was called "The Void." I knew I'd been living all my lifetimes, and preparing diligently, to be able to live through this event. In my consciousness, it was something exciting and joyful, yet I knew many people would lose their lives. "How could I possibly have forgotten this!" I thought.
Then a voice said, "To survive The Void you must become like the void." And I knew then that we were all in a process of becoming transparent, every inch of us. To be transparent meant to hold nothing to yourself, to release all ego, to be soft and adaptable, porous and permeable. To be transparent meant that we would learn to live in a state without the need for fixed identity, without a set history, without limitation, without beliefs, without fear and reactionary behavior. Those things make us opaque, solid, and dense.
During The Void, which I sensed to be somewhere in the first twenty years of the 21st century, there would be a powerful phenomenon akin to the stopping of time. It would primarily occur in the higher dimensions, the mental and emotional planes, yet it would have an effect on our physical bodies. I knew that as we experienced this "Pause," we'd have no idea how long it was lasting, because time would not exist. It's like we would blink out, then blink back in again. Those of us who had become transparent—in other words, who were fluid, fully in the moment without expectations or projections into future or past, and who held no fixed ideas—would simply flow with the situation, not experiencing much of a disruption to our ordinary way of being, since we already knew the sort of timelessness or timefulness inherent in the present moment.
But people who were still living with the concept of linear time, projecting into the future, rushing to meet deadlines or dipping nostalgically into the past, would have their worldview shattered. There would be a tremendous flood of energy running through the planes of existence, through the "energy bodies," and anywhere there was too much holding on, or holding back, or holding out, that mental fixation would act as an impurity in the system, causing an implosion. With no holding patterns, the energy would simply flow through harmlessly, giving the "transparent" person an experience of heightened divinity and light. Those who were still "opaque" with fear and controlling behaviors, would likely die from the overload.
And yet, there was no tragedy. Those who died physically in the blink of an eye, would not realize what had happened consciously, and they would reincarnate right away onto a planet that was of the same vibration as the one they'd just left. Their earth would function in much the same way as it always had. Those who blinked back in, having absorbed the huge new dose of light, would reincarnate onto an earth that was more etheric, yet seemed just as familiar to them. Neither group would suffer alienation. In effect, there would be a bifurcation of the world, and two planet Earths would exist side-by-side in parallel realities.
Since this dream, which happened about ten years ago, I have wondered about the process of becoming transparent, wondered if I was making any progress. In the past few years, though, I've had a stronger sense that this was indeed happening. More people understand what it is to live in the present moment, and how this kind of centered consciousness literally changes the rules of the world. We're learning about the new paradigm consciousness, and how powerful the unified field is as a medium of awareness. The more we keep ourselves centered in the now, the higher the frequency of our consciousness. The higher the frequency of our consciousness, the less capacity we have to suppress fear and hold negative beliefs. This means that all the interferences, the impurities in our systems, are now rising to the surface to be dissolved. Misunderstandings ask to be re-understood.
We will see an increase in voluntary loss of ego and overly-structured identity. More people will become beginner shape-shifters, reformulating themselves easily again and again, as the needs of the collective pull new interests and desires up from the collective unconscious. If you are in a period of loss right now, don't worry. It's really a period of gestation, a gift that allows you to drop into your own deep waters and feel what wants to be real NOW. A friend of mine said she had a dream where she was inside a cocoon, very tight and alone. Suddenly it exploded and she was a swan swimming peacefully on a glassy lake, with many other swans. She said she realized that what was coming would be an experience of greater connectedness with like-minded others, that she would no longer have to do everything alone.
Here are some things you can do to further this process of becoming transparent:
> Center yourself repeatedly inside your body, in the moment, and see what you already know about whatever's just been on your mind.
> Absolutely STOP self-doubt thoughts, yes, but's, cynical or critical thinking, and negative comments.
> Saturate yourself in thoughts of what you love, what excites you, what brings simple pleasure, what opens your heart.
> Release other people's ideas that you mistakenly carry and hold as your own. Release opinions, beliefs about your identity, or what you think you have to do.
> Visualize yourself uncluttered by shoulds, old ideas, and negative feelings. Let yourself experience spaciousness, openness, expansion, clear light all around you.
> Let go of any ways you hold on, hold back, hold forth, hold out, and hold up.
Remember: In any now moment you can be transparent. Just focus your whole self into the moment and breathe diamond light, radiate diamond light, and relax any urges to control yourself and the world. You don't have to know who you are. You're much bigger and more complex than you could ever imagine. The soul will make you into whatever is needed for the next moment of life. Go with it! Discover yourself as you become, then discover yourself anew.